RANTS......

Well I guess it has come down to this... Me ranting and raving like a loony on my blog. I can't believe it, but I have to get some things off my shoulders! If I dont I might explode and THAT would be very messy, and then I would have to clean it up! hahahaha... Friends: I am a friendly person for the most part. At least I try to be. I might be shy and quiet when you first meet me but then once I get to know someone I open up and become out spoken and funny.. However I seem to have *friends* that only use me. I mean in the 3 some odd years I have lived here I really still do not have any one I call MY friend. I had girl friends that I would go out with me *if I did all the PLANNING and ASKING and most of the time PAYING* while hubby was deployed. Now that I have a baby though... I have yet to be asked out by any of my so called friends. No, they call me to help them with stuff.. To sew things... To do things for them... Have I gotten one invite out to a girl movie? A shopping date? NO!!! I'm sick of it. I am tired of my husband saying that we have lots of friends. No correction YOU have lots of friends. I leave for awhile and he gets invited to dinners, movies, running\hiking... WHile my hubby will be gone for 4 days and have I gotten so much as a hey you wanna hang out? NOPE! He was gone only 3 weeks after I had our baby to a feild problem, for a week. I had a mouse infestation to deal with posted it all over facebook did anyone of those so called friends help me!?!?!? Ask me to go out for a few hours get away from the stupid mouse infested house?!?! NO!!!! I'm sick of it!!!! So at the moment I give up. I am happy to be at home or out with my Baby... I am even happier if my hubby is with me too. Honestly right now I have 3 friends I can count on: -My Husband -My Mom -My Sister Katy & Becca Okay not 3 but 4... My bad I can't count. *The last three live in TN!!!* In-Laws: Okay I dont know if it was my home school up bringing, all the courtship novels and old style novels I read.. But I expected to be more part of my husbands' family. Ever since I married my husband I have felt like an out-cast in his family. I am on good terms with my neices and newphews... But that's about it. It seems like everyone else HATES me. It's starting to drain on me... I try to do as much as I can for all of them.... *We live here is Colorado while all his family lives in New York* We visit when we have the funds and he has the time off... But still that isn't enough! I am a people pleaser. I love pleasing people but it seems like no matter what I do. I can't please them!!!! UGH! Thank You: It's not that hard people! You get something from someone you take a few seconds or minutes and say\write\text\facebook THANK YOU! Plan and simple.. I was raised you get a gift from someone you sit down and write a thank you. I still do that. I do it for my husband, and my daughter when they recive things.. I wrote someone a thank you note and he told me that he had NEVER gotten a thank you note.. I'm like WHAT!?!?! Have we really become those people that it's only about me?!?! How sad! I for one am happy that I was raised to say THANK YOU! Compliments: I NEED THEM! That's all I can say... And -Childish -Funny -Silly -Weird -Awkward NO THEY ARE NOT COMPLIMENTS no matter what one thinks.. Phew.... Wow I feel better! I mean really I do. That's kinda crazy. Dang I should have tried this sooner! LoL... Anyway, I'm sure I will come up with more sooner or later. Asfor now this is what I have time to write! My Buggy is calling to me telling me that it is time to feed her! ~Be Blessed and Be A Blessing~